so scary....
got to noe wat happen to her.....
feel so pity....
dun even noe how to help her....
its so scary not to seek help frm God...
once someone decide to live life on his/her own...
they will have to face many many difficulties....
how long can they survive on themselves?

actually is that reali difficult to look to God?
tried to be mature... tried to lead life in her own way....
end up depression... need medication... ppl reject her...
how foolish it is....
one conclution. no one is able to live life his / her own.
juz simply bcoz we are not able to... & we need someone bigger to turn to =)

feel so refresh after sat....
hmmmm...... i fell in love with that song =)
nice nice !!!!
to be in his presence.... that's wat i always long for.... =)

west C... i wan all of u to rmber.....
10 sept 2005
that's ur promiz....
=)

saw how jency's grp celebrated her bdae!
her grp is so loving......
so envy lor... =p saw my green eyes?? haha
jency... u are so blessed !!!! do u realise that ? =)
hhaha!!!!!

got a sianz feeling with my com.
sort till this extend...
waste my time....
wana sent my com to hospital liao...
hack care if all my songs are gone or not...
argh !!!! but.........
heart pain !!
haha!

blogger is mad too......
many times... yes its M-A-N-Y times....
can type everything & cant post the blog.....

anyway tml is sat liao.....
thats fast !!
quick.... 21 ! =)
pls let it come to pass.....

wahaha.
sat is nearer.......
oh my oh my........

reminded of something =)
[-Faith is giving thanks b4 u receive it-]

juz now was teaching my sheep abt 'how to live a joy-filled life?"
& here i am.... i shall shout it loud that
U CANT LIVE A JOYFUL LIFE W/O LIVING WITH JESUS!
Jesus = Joy :)
if u are searching for joy... den u can stop le..
coz other den Jesus... u cant find it anywhere le...
am i "blowing cow" ? (hahaha)
welll... wat do u tik? =p

juz now cousin came to my hse....
he work for my dad...
my dad ask him go somewhere to take goods....
den he say :"later they duno who am i how?"
daddy : " aiya juz tell them u frm wat company can liao"

this reminds me of moses...
u can read this...
[-exo 3: 13-15-]

13 Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, 'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?"
14 God said to Moses, "I am who I am . [b] This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.' "
15 God also said to Moses, "Say to the Israelites, 'The LORD, [c] the God of your fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has sent me to you.' This is my name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation.

so..... no matter who u are.. able or not... e most impt is.... who is the one that sent u? =)

*count down*
argh !!!!!! 4 more days!!!!
wat have u done so far???

actually nth to blog...
juz laming here.....
wahaha....

pls rmber that this sat have west celebration !!!
dun miss it !!!

my prelim is coming !
muz pass....
if not.... oh no !!!!
wahaha!!!
pls pray for me wor...
thanks !

oh my.... i am dead sleepy today.....
went skool like a zombie....
went homw like a zombie too...
haha!!!
ytd be a good gal...
stay back at east coast to study....
coz of that, i am lidat... wahaha !!!!

had my eng oral today....
hmmmm wasnt that difficult as i imagine..
phew.. its over.. thank God !!!

this week is so so [ jing 3 zhang 1 ]
its like a few days to end aug le.....
oh God.... west 70...

ppl who dun bother to work hard....
gotta wake up now.....
reap wat u sow... =)
sow less means will reap less.... yup.

- As soon as HE hear s you , He will answer you -

there is nth much i can do.....
its like i can do nth abt it lar....
but juz have that assurance that thou i cant do much, God will take care of it =)
eh reali leh... these fews days....
many things happen, but none of the probz i noe how to handle....
keep asking God the same ques... "how arh??"
keep telling God the same thing... "i reali duno how..."
wahaha !!!

i am juz too limited.....
its like, probz are everywhere.... but all i can say is...
i reali duno how !!!!
reali gotta rely on HIM.
so.... when everything's ok... its always not me but God...
bcoz we are limited.
limited is a word that i can describe myself ba..
feel like i am a blind man... duno where to go next.. waiting for someone to guide me.
& here i am... i wan God to guide me, juz wan to do wat he wan me to do...
coz i'm totally clueless of eveything & anything....

amazing... i did not panic..
juz noe that God will help me.
admit that i am not able.
need Him. =)

argh. reali duno how to express wat i am trying to say.
juz wana say that now i very question mark....
God is telling me that not everything i can handle.
so now.... i am "throwing" everything to God...
& i am sure that He will take care of it.
yeah. done =)

prelim is on my birthday =(
sadening....
nvm. only this year..... wahaha

TRUST IN THE LORD FOREVER FOR HE IS THE ROCK ETERNAL

wow....
suddenly feel so free...
actually in my schedule i am e most busy today de....
but out of all sudden.....
jolene's cg cancel....
change to thurs....
oh well... God i pray that tcher will cancel the oral on thurs!!! i wan to go cg!
i am reali desparate.... i reali wan a breakthrough in west C.

tml gonna mit jingmei... so excited..
my new sheep !!!!
find her so loving.....
i sms her wanted to change date to mit her coz i am supposed to be busy tml...
den realise that only tml our time can match...
[Jingmei: is it very tiring for u??u can mah??]
[mii: "its ok lar... i will make sure jolene's cg ends early!! wahaha!]
[jingmei: so mit wat time? i can cater to ur time....]
wahaha !! so sweet.... wat a rare sheep.... =p

oh mann` abit regret re-taking MT....
have to do -zuo4 wen2- again !!
haiz.... better got A2 mann... of not i am wasting my time le.

i reali wan L1R5 20pts...
God pls help mi.....
gonna work hard.. bcoz i am actually a gone case..
haha!!! but i noe i can do it de... God is with mi !

God..... i reali wana see 21 !!! oh my God... cant describe my despo-ness.
can u galz in west C be in this with mi??

WEST-SEVENTY

BREAKTHROUGH

can say that love is nv nv easy...
its always beyond us.
or rather i would say love unconditionaly is not easy =)
well... Jesus did it.

finally some senses was knock into my head...
1. i need to be thankful
2.trust that watever God give me, its e best.
3.contented.. boz in e 1st place i deserve nth.
4.nth is too difficult for my big God.
5.i am a blessed child.

oh well... need time to digest... but again...
i shall say that nth is too big for god...

new structure in west C.
new growth... =)
13 more days...
pretty excited...
i wan to let that day be a day of rejoicing & not comforting each other..
wahaha !!!

this week will be a fruitful week for mi...
a week of fixing the broken...
God... pls use mi greatly !
wana study hard... O level coming...
thats so so soon...
buck up !!!! =p

BE THANK UL =)

wat i can say is its not gonna be easy...
none of u can ever understand coz u are not me.
oh well.... i am still thankful, bcoz i need someone who is not in e same situation as me to knock some sense into my head.
ya... not gonna be easy as how ppl say & teach..
but there is nth too difficult for my big God.

i feel pain.
but one thing i am for sure is......
i have jesus with me =)
He is my only reason y i am still breathing...
or i shall juz end my life.
i am thankful that i have jesus...
i do not noe how to express my graditude for God but juz feel so so blessed.
life gotta be meaningless w/o Him.
i reali reali thankful .. reali......

ting wana remind herself that she wants to lead a life that pleases God..
a life that can put a smile on His face...
Her attitude.. her behaviour... her decision.. she wanted to please God.
no matter wat.. ting's gonna look to God.

LOOK TO GOD

oh no!!! i am burned !!
actually its nice lar... but my skin's peeling... thats so disgusting !
ting not beautiful liao.. haha !!!!
*blehz*

now i am blogging while waiting for the herbal tea to boil..
haha
morning i had difficulties in breathing & my chest is so pain...
noe that gonna have asthma....
but thank God its not serious...
daddy wan mi to drink that..
it taste super sucks..
u noe wat i did??
when he went out, i re-heat the herbal tea & add in lots & lots of sugar...
yeah !!! taste better =)
haha.... being notty =p

i tik i can identify how jerel feel...
but wun say totally understand lar, coz i not him mah...
i lost my phones like 3 times?? all new phone !!
ewwww....
feel like kicking myself... feel so regret..
haha!!!
still rmber there is once... b4 i sleep i tell God that i wan the hp back...
suddenly i rmber a song "faith! i can move e mountains"
a stupid thoughts came across my mind...
"eh?if faith can move e mountains, faith can bring my hp back too! ok God tml morning when i wake up, pls let mi see my hp beside mi !!"
keep singing that song till i fall asleep....

e 1st thing i woke up is to search my hp...
thinking to myself...
"is e hp back?? not beside me leh... izzit on the table charging??"
to ur supprise .....
e phone is still missing =p
noe that i am stupid... but reali miss my phone..
cried for many many days....
on bus, during sat svs... at hm... everywhere.. i cried...
until one day joyce told mi e story abt job...
got two conclusion.....
1. God is not there to harm us, He love me =)
2. Job give thanks to God despite wat he suffers... he lost his favourite too!!
that time i was quite young in God, & i admire Job alot...
frm that day, i stop crying...
next, my 6230 lost again!! together wiyh my whole bag...
thou i am smiling all e way in jp, i am crying inside..
rmber pris, chu lee, wenting, jerel, dewen, joyce was there...
but i learn to respond correctly, bcoz after all, God is not to blame, wana give thanks no matter how lousy i feel =)
eh, this is not a sermon to teach jerel, but e hps incident reali grew my character & thou its dumb(faith i can move e mountains) =p but it is a precious memory & growing up process =)

eh!!! juz someone try to flirt mi !!
to make things worse... he is a bangala...
not that i racist lar... but its juz so disgusting...
noe wat?? thats so so so so [diu lian] !!
thank God he didnt do stun like winking at mi or ask my number lor...
juz come say some praise to mi, & i was like giving him a super fake smile.
oh well, didnt scream at him coz he haben do stun yet..
if he did... i would use my ice lemon tea bottle & smack him rite to his face...
provided that if i dun need to pay e hospital bills lar... haha!
hate ppl who tries to be funny to mi, =p=p
gonna be the joke of the day by my classmates liao...
dun worry... i am still e gentle ting u noe =)
juz that ting needs to protect herself if bad guys approach.. haha

how long is forever?? 1 mth?? 1 year??
haha....
ppl lurve to say "together forever" & 1 mth later... gone..
wow... amazing.. forever so short..
my point is... no one can be with u forever...
there is no such thing as forever..
dun be naive...
correction * no HUMANS can be with u forever..
can they promiz??
nahz..
only God can give u forever...
only Jesus... He can... =)
i am sure that He lurves mi forever...
no HUMAN on this face of earth can ever did that.. to love u forever..
=)
if u noe of one... tell mi.. (i doubt??)*Jesus not counted*
haha !!!!

[-y rooted on things that dun last??-]

warning : this entry is juz for escaping frm looking at geog textbook...
(sobz..but i noe.. 10mins later have to go & study liao)
it will be boring boring boring...
read at ur own risk !! (question mark) haha

kinda pulling myself to study..
wahaha...
geog test on fri !!
oh no oh no !!
hehe...

my skool got new rulez..
we have this yellow cards ststem...
got funny rulez like cannot step out of e classroom...
we have tchers walking ard to check who slp..
ear stud can only b of certain colour..
blah blah blah..
thats not the exciting part..
for example.. u are caught with no badge..
the tcher book u wit e yellow card..
den on ur way to buy e badge... another tcher caught u..
den got another yellow card.. if u tries to explain or argue... one more yellow card..
so, if u are sway... means u are sway..
haha !!!
even at Jp, we have tchers ard..
all my frenz so unhappi...
but who cares??
1.i am graduating soon!
2. skools are lidat...
3. i dun care at all.. haha !!
poor sec 1... =p

later 7pm going to skool again....
oh no...
actually... u can see mi crapping here...
hmmm..
wana tell u 1 secret...
i am here to release stress!!!
now fasting... no chocolate to eat...
haha!!!

oh btw...juz now go & feed my [an . ning] (turtles)
e way they eat vegie so cute!!
thou i am not them... but i tik they dun like cabbage leh...
duno y since young i had an impression that turtles prefer kangkong...
but i noe they surly dun like turtle food..
they seldom eat finish one..
as i am watching them eat..
i wonder... "y God created such a small turtle?"
the only use of e turtle is juz being someone's pet..
haha
den i had a conclusion...
mayb God created turtles bcoz He noe that ting love turtles....
(not that one in e sea.. that one ugly.. that one in pet shop) haha
aiya joking =)

i am sick of being sick..
is that too chim??
haha... if u get it, u get it..if not den nvm =)
if u dun get it, u are pro..
but its juz that ppl who get it are more pro..=p

i need to have alot of breakthroughs in my life...
shall not talk abt it in public blog..
but one of them is surely my physical health.
oh gosh.. i got so many probz lor ...
reali alot...
thats y i say i am sick of being sick!!
wahaha !!
no worries..... =)
-[ Jehovah Rapha ]- the lord our healer
i shall claim that by faith =)

Aaron told mi that his frenz commended abt my looks...
they say i look nice...
*wait*(b4 u puke or u pray for his frenz...)
let mi tell u wat i told aaron...
"well, this is bcoz they nv see me when i'm at home"
haha!!! another chim logic??
when i am home...the way i dress... the way my hair look like...
my little eyes bcoz nv wear contact lens..
e way i use tissue..its alot!! all thanks to my nose =p
wahaha!!! scary??
actually hor..... most of the gals are lidat de lar...
u will nv noe how they look like when no one is ard them...
when u happen too see them...
they might supprise u or rather scare u??!!

opps... come to realise...
when guys mood swing... its worse den ladies!!!
saw that in my class...
1min ago, u can see them joking...
1 min later... u can see chairs flying..
wahaha.... dun tik thats only wat gals is capable with lor...
now the descriptions of gals can apply onto guys liao.. =p
my life is in danger....
haha!

learn a precious lesson....
"y bother??" "y take it to heart??"
juz now i was thinking to myself..
"y make life so miserable?"
juz dun let it affect mi. & done.
i tik its very true....
we can choose to let the matter bothers us
or dun take it personally....
your choice to be miserable or to smile..

pris came back last fri..
gonna shop with her & joey at bugis this thurs...
this is so like before...
haha!!
kinda miss west B times...
last time...almost every 2 weeks...
me, pris & joey will shop
hahaha!!!

after that, joey went poly, pris left spore..
we haben reali chat since ard half a year??
u noe wat?
when we got together & chat again..
its amazing that i dun feel weird..
dun feel that i am talking to a stranger leh...
well... this is friendship... wun be affected...
juz bcoz we have the same vision..
we love the same thing..
1. God 2.Shopping !!
haha!!!

something to say........
as i am talking abt relationship... i tot of something..
here i go..
"There is no relationship that can last.... other den the relationship with Jesus!" =)

God Heals Mi Today !!
i have terrible sore throat & Fever...
after praying..
i am healed =)

look at my family =)

There is alot of ways to be renewed by God...
one of the ways is fellowshipping.(double "p"??)
i find this very true...
sometimes when i am down....
heavy hearted....
by juz spending time with my sdmm ppl, i am refreshed =)
well, they might not noe that i came with a heavy heart....
but being with them is so so relaxing .. so nice =)
juz enjoy them !
eh... not that i say they are more powerful den God.
i mean this is only ONE of the ways. wahaha
God place different ppl in our life...
why??
one of the reason is to spere one another on.
God place this team in my life & i am so thankful.
they always spere mi on.
i dun totally depend on them to be renewed, however....... they do play a part. =)
yay..
how is ya relationship with each other in this family??
openers breeds openers..
ppl always tik that they are alone... no one can help them...
why??
coz they are not willing to share =)
how on earth are u going to get a close fren if no one noe u ?

i tik leaving God is scary...
reali cant imagine life w/o Him...
hmmmm....
instead of saying "I dun dare to leave God" i wana say "i DUN want to leave God"
yes.... i dun dare to leave God bcoz i noe i need HIM, & no one else can meet my needs.
but i wana be with HIM not only bcoz he meet my needs, but bcoz i love Him !!

well.... i truly tik that our motivation of serving God should not come frm our grp..
coz groups might fall... & will have low periods...
den no more motivations.. den end up leaving...
oh no !!!
but rather...
let God be our motivation to serve our grp...
even if the grp is not as ideal as wat we expected....
we will still go on... bcoz our motivational "object" is still there & nv leave unless we drop it=)

noe wat?
focus ur eyes on God....
we are tired... we are discourage...
etc etc etc....
mostly is bcoz we are focusing on ourselves!!
yeah... so Look to God.. not urself.
focusing on urself will only bring pains.. wahaha.

write alot...
haha
too convicted !!
wahaha !!!

oh ya a joke b4 i go...
u noe hor... fri got the seminar...
b4 that got praise....
the song goes like this... " I Am Glad....Etc Etc"
den at that time lyrics haben come out...
i heard wrongly...
i heard... " I Am Fat...."
den i was like stun lor....
looking both innocently & shocking at jency & jerel...
ting: " huh?? i am fat??"
guess wat??
*jency & jerel LOL*
mi myself cant stop laughing when i noe the truth=)
hai yo...
wahaha.